“I love you. I’ll never forget you.”

When you hear a man say this, and you’re like me who has been around and have heard all the lines there must be in this world, you just tend to smile and go numb.

Then, you try to comfort the man by saying that he’s sure to find someone again. And of course, he tries to say that you will not be replaced. Then you remind him that you just replaced someone else.

Then come the magic words. “Each of you was special in your own way. Especially you”. And you know that you’ve finally heard what will forever convince you that you WILL be replaced.

Of course, what can one really say during a break-up anyway? What does one say when he/she is breaking a heart? What does one say when he/she is trying to NOT get his/her heart broken?

And you, you’d just smile and pretend that things are ok. You’d smile and pretend that you won’t really care if he ends up banging one of your friends, or ‘falling’ for someone you know. You’d smile and pretend that you’d never wonder who it is he’d be holding in his arms, or to whom he’s going to fall in love with, or who is haunting his dreams. You’d smile and pretend you don’t have this silent wish that he misses you too, or that he’s thinking of you. You’d smile and pretend that only a few things will remind you of him. You’d smile and pretend to forget his smile, his scent, the way he looks at you, the way he feels when touching you….

And you’d tell yourself. That was a stupid thing to have happen. And no, there would be no regrets. Just sadness.

P.S.

Then again, repeating to yourself that you will be replaced brings with it a certain kind of consolation and peace. Perhaps, this love was transitory and impermanent after all. A love, only for a season. And your season has ended to bring both of you to where you truly belong… not in each other’s keeping.